Sharing keeps me in the conversation and holds me accountable to things I believe. Plus, I get to meet like-minded people and share their experience. Hearing their experiences allows me to see myself more clearly.
It took a lot of time and hard work to embrace sharing my experiences with Endometriosis and Chronic Pain. As you can imagine, after 17 years of struggle, you kind of just want to tuck it away and be done with it. That worked well for a while. But the emotional pain and trauma was bubbling right under the surface. If you knew what questions to ask, tears would flow all too easily.
I am a big Brene Brown fan and her work on vulnerability. She writes, and I believe, a breakdown is a spiritual awakening. So true! Sounds awesome! Until you’re in the middle of a breakdown! Ugh! Towards the end of my coaching I was in the mother of all breakdowns, and when I finally came up for air, I heard Brene Brown’s voice. “Vulnerability is our most accurate measure of courage, and is the birthplace of innovation, creativity, and change.” I was terrified, but would I be this upset over something if it didn’t mean great deal to me?
The idea of sharing my experience to help others has come up before. But this time is different. I am healthy. And emotionally in a much better place. I have to try on the possibility of doing this. And as I embraced it, little signs started showing up. Like an email to participate in a writing workshop for women entitled, “Your struggle, Your story”. Really? So I spent one Saturday with the intention of fully participating. Pretend for one day that this is what I’m going to do. And it went really well! Over the years, throughout all the different therapies, I’ve written my story plenty of times. Always an emotional disaster. And don’t even think about asking me to read it out loud. At this workshop, I’m not only wrote my story without wavering, I read it too!
I spent the next couple months writing. It’s been a firehose of words. I discovered overcoming and being successful is very important to me. So is helping women. Encouraging women to listen to their bodies and honor themselves. Inspiring women to love and accept themselves. And helping more women to view themselves as beautiful.
I want to share because I struggled with all of these myself. And now, being on the other side, I know how good it feels. I’ve had a lot of help, and I continue to evolve. I believe everyone is worthy and deserving of their own health and well being.