When I started acupuncture I thought I was really stretching the limits and being rather experimental with an alternative healing path. In reality, I had barely scratched the surface of what’s possible. I had been seeing my acupuncturist, Christine, for a while and trusted her methods. She uses a variety of techniques beyond acupuncture including craniosacral therapy, visceral manipulation therapy, energy work, and meditation. Especially at the beginning of my journey with acupuncture, I experienced chi stagnation in my abdomen as a result of the endometriosis. I’ve since learned I hold all my stress and negative beliefs in my lower back, pelvis, and abdomen. On this particular day, Christine asked if I was open to trying something different. “Sure.” I thought. Being in a place of complete desperation will get you to try just about anything. I had no idea what she was up to, but everything she’s ever suggested had been helpful… and I agreed to participate.
She put one hand on my lower back, and one on my stomach. She asked that we put our collective energy and attention on the space between her hands, and instructed me to simply notice what comes up for me. (Now, I was raised in a small town in the middle of Nebraska. We DO NOT meditate, or listen to what our bodies have to say. So this was WAY outside my comfort zone, and I was nervous!)
Christine was quiet for a while, and then started asking questions. “Are you feeling anything? Do you see any images or colors? Are you having any thoughts?” I just laid there in silence. I considered what she was saying, but literally, there was nothing. Nothing. An emptiness I had never experienced. I quietly started to cry. Just soft tears flowing down my cheek, pooling in my ears, and soaking my hair. I felt an incredible silence, emptiness, nothingness. I could feel my heartbeat echoing throughout my cavernous empty body. My consciousness was completely stopped, paralyzed. I couldn’t speak. I don’t know how long Christine let me lay there with my own thoughts, but she finally asked what I was experiencing. “Nothing. Just nothing.” I whispered through the tears.
When our session was finished, she said she had someone she wanted me to see. “A Kinesiologist. Her techniques will allow you to reconnect with your body and emotions.”
Kinesiology has become an integral part of my healing, and I am really excited to share my experiences in the coming months.
Christine Nguyen is a licensed acupuncturist and alternative medicine specialist at Transformation Healing Arts. She specializes in Chronic and Acute Pain
, Gynecology/Women’s Health, Neurological Issues, Psychological Problems, Gastrointestinal Disorders, and Respiratory Ailments.
Audrey, you have such a beautiful way of wording! I knew exactly what you were feeling by how you expressed it!