I woke up this morning feeling like my body was wrapped in 20 layers of sausage casing…more intimately known to the modern woman as Spanx. No, I didn’t pass out in my party dress. I woke up emotionally wrapped in fear; squeezing my ribs, stomach, and back, squeezing my creativity and self-expression.
Ladies, let’s be real. Why do we wear these spandex sausage casings? We want to eliminate jelly jiggle, hide lumps and bumps, and have our body appear perfectly smooth. Emotionally speaking, fear does the same dang thing! We want to look good, to not rock the boat, to not be the crazy one. Fear keeps the appearance of being emotionally smoothed out.
At first glance, this sounds great! Appearing to have it all together. But what if keeping up such appearances is keeping you from your best self?!
This morning I woke up in a lot of pain, and for me I now know pain signals emotional messages. So I sat with the discomfort. As I tuned inward to listen to my body, I had the vision of being wrapped in Spanx. 20 layers of emotional spandex squeezing the life out of me; fear.
So I did what any logical woman would do…took the damn Spanx off! I acknowledged that I am fearful of playing big, fearful of REALLY sharing my whole self, fearful of what people will think, fearful of saying something embarrassing, fearful that no one will actually care what I have to say. It just keeps going!
And then I stopped. I took a deep breath, switched gears, and asked myself what fear is keeping me from.
Fear is keeping me from authentic connection, from sharing my perspective and power, from playing big in being a writer, speaker, and spiritual growth coach. And most importantly, empowering women to heal! All I want to do is teach women the power of listening to their bodies!
So I got up, walked to the coffee shop and bust out this blog. I haven’t blogged in so long! It feels really good. The process of editing and publishing my book has been cumbersome; it took me away from creative writing and into a space of analytical writing. (WAY less fun!) Finishing my book took me away from my heart and into my head where logic and fear seem to go hand in hand.
I am excited to be back to blogging, and excited to have removed emotional Spanx! Whew! I can BREATHE!
Is being fearful crippling you? Take one step to shift your persecutive, to change your verbiage. You’ll be amazed at the power your thoughts and words have in shaping your world.
Until next time…actually sooner than later now that I am back on the blogging train…